SOCIAL MEDIA

Monday, 14 September 2015

The Two Sides Of Me


    



Where do I start.... I ask myself this question because my life has been one of ups and downs and twists and turns. I wish it was one on a straight path with a clear purpose and sense of direction but it’s been all the contrary. It’s been a life with goals that appear to be clear but fuzz up and fade as the days and months pass and my mood swings from mania to depression. Yup! I’m bipolar.


Sunday, 13 September 2015

Decay



*Trigger Warning*

My arms are the first thing to go.
On comes the arguing, the digging, the accusations,
On comes the weighing, the fidgeting, the revealing Google searches.
On comes the constant questioning and the contrasted urging.


Men and Mental Health

I was scrolling through my Facebook earlier and found this. I realised that this would make an important post. There is a stigma against mental health in general. However, men seem to completely shut down when it comes to mental health. In my suicide prevention week post there was a fact that shocked me: the majority of men who kill themselves are between the age of 40 and 50. These are not teenage boys who have high levels of testosterone and who are struggling with school or just fitting into the world. These are men who have families and jobs and are suffering from mental illnesses but can't talk about it.


Wednesday, 9 September 2015

On The Other Side



I am a normal 29 year old girl. I live in North London and have an incredible life. I have an amazing family, complicated in its make up but bolted together by love. I am blessed to be surrounded by talented, clever funny friends and get to do a job that I love every day. I have the freedom to travel, which I do, I like my appearance and I am lucky enough to be financially stable. To top it all off, last week I married the man I have been in love with for the past 12 years in a beautiful ceremony in the south of Spain. And yet… and yet I don’t always find it that easy to feel the happiness I always should. Please don’t get me wrong I always know when I SHOULD feel pure happiness but it’s not always that easy.


Suicide Prevention Week


The suicide prevention week runs between the 6th and the 12th of September in the hopes to raise awareness about suicide. Every year 800,00 people die from suicide which equates to someone killing themselves every 40 seconds. According to The Samaritans in 2013, there were 6,708 suicides in the UK alone, the majority being men between 40 and 50.


Sunday, 6 September 2015

An anxious child

I was always an anxious child, I always seemed to see things from the dangerous perspective and I grew irrational fears of things.  Fears that would lead me to avoid certain situations completely; sleepovers, the cinema, theme parks, phone conversations unless I had a script in front of me or anywhere where anyone could be ill (school during the times where there were plenty of illnesses going around were hell). A lot of these fears I would hide from people because  I was scared they would judge me on having such a limited life.  I truly believed I would grow out of this.