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Wednesday, 22 May 2019

Where have I been? Finishing uni, losing my brother, what's next?




It has been a hot minute since I last sat down to blog. In fact, if you follow me on social media you may have noticed that I have been quieter than usual on there too. So I thought I would take the time to give an update of sorts, so grab a cuppa, it could be a long one.


Saturday, 2 February 2019

January



I don't usually do these types of posts but January has been a month. The first month of the year is over and my goodness has it been a rollercoaster. 


Tuesday, 11 December 2018

A look back on 2018





2018. What a year. I say what a year as though its been amazing but in actual fact its been really tough. On January first I started my bullet journal and set myself a list of things that I wanted to achieve. So in this post, I want to share with you the highs and lows of 2018, as well as a thought on 2019.  This may be a long one so grab a cuppa. 

(Trigger warning, talk of weight, self-harm, suicidal thoughts, and emetophobia)

Sunday, 25 November 2018

I don't have much to say.



It's been a while since I've found the will to write but as the title says I don't have much to say, and that pretty much explains my absence. So this blog post may not have a point or a direction but instead, it'll be a bit of an explanation of the last month or so, consider it an update of sorts. 

Tuesday, 11 September 2018

The start of a new adventure - Time to change




Its been a while since you've read a blog post from me but after the weekend I've had, I've found myself with a spark of motivation. If you have been following my blog or my social media for a while you will be well aware that 2018 hasn't been the smoothest of rides for my family and on top of it all I have been stuck in the worst mental health patch I think I've ever had. It's for sure been one of the hardest years of my life and the fact that there are still 4 months left of 2018 and then more years kind of makes me sad because will it actually get better? Will I ever feel better? But this weekend I had that little spark of hope as I attended the Time to Change young champion training weekend in London and I wanted to tell you all about it.

Sunday, 12 August 2018

Having a parent with a disability



Recently my family reached a big milestone. The 3rd of August 2018 marked 5 years since my mum underwent surgery to remove a large brain tumour and it is on this day that she began life with a disability. So I wanted to take the time to talk about having a parent with a disability and also to talk about what it was like being a carer for some of my teenage years. 

Sunday, 17 June 2018

2018 so far- mental health, living abroad, life update



I like to think that I am honest with you about my mental health and my life but I am not sure if I have been really as honest as I could have been these past 6 months, not only about the bad but also the good. So here is an honest chat about my life in that time, living abroad, mental health, family life, and travel. An all-round honest update. You may want a cuppa for this one because it'll be long.

Sunday, 15 January 2017

Hello 20



Wow, hi there 20 and goodbye 19. 

 I can't believe my teenage years are over and what a set of years they have been. It certainly was action packed and full of drama, enough to make a successful TV soap. Never is there a boring moment in my life.  Humour aside, it has been a journey, a rather difficult one at that. At times I had planned my whole life out (life never sticks to the plan though) and at others I wasn't even sure I wanted to reach 18. Yet here I am at 20 and I look back on it all rather stunned. Sometimes I look at everything that has happened and smile to myself thinking "you're flipping strong girlie" because I am. Whilst I am more than happy to leave my teenage years for the shizza that has happened I will also miss them. Hitting 20 means that life gets serious from now. It means having to get a full time job once my degree is finished, settling down at some point and having to master the art of adulting (a skill which i'm not great at yet).

Friday, 16 December 2016

What I learnt in 2016


2016 has been a strange year, it's been one of those years that I have watched so many horrible things happen to the people I love and to the world, yet personally, this year has overall been a good one. Of course I was challenged (A LOT) but I have also grown a lot, learnt a lot and had some amazing opportunities. So I want to take the time to talk through the things that I have learnt within the last 365 days that are 2016.


Monday, 29 August 2016

An open letter to my 16 year old Self


To my 16 year old self,

How are you? Stupid question right? I know things suck right now but I'm you,we are approaching 20 years old and we are happy, an emotion that you rarely feel at this point in time but trust me, you will feel it again. When I think back to you I realise how much I have learnt and thought I would write you a letter of hope. 

Sunday, 1 May 2016

When Do I Earn The Title Of Recovered?


I have always seen recovery as a destination. But that has got me thinking, where is "recovered", is it a month clean? 3 months, 6 months, a year? Is it being able to not feel any anxiety? Is it being happy all the time?


Wednesday, 7 October 2015

My Story: Recovery (Part 3)

I was referred to CAMHS (child and mental health services) and whilst I was on the waiting list I was given a counsellor in school. My sleeping pattern slowly began to improve and I was able to eat again. I started to get my life back on track. I was diagnosed with anxiety and I was given ways to change my thinking patterns. I was with CAMHS for about 4 months before I was discharged. I learnt that my self harm was a need for control, when things fall apart in my life, I would self harm as a way to be able to control at least one type of pain. Life was getting better. I was accepting that dad wasn't really in my life, mum was getting better and I was happier. I did well in my AS exams and continued my studies.


Saturday, 3 October 2015

My Story: Mid Teens (Part 2)

Until I was 15, one night in November I had an open evening to sixth form. Mum had a hospital appointment and so couldn't attend so my dad came with me. It was his first time setting foot into the school and I was so excited to show off that he was there, the school thought he was non existent and it was great to finally be able to show him around. I got home, knowing the subjects I was going to take for my A levels, buzzing and happy.

Thursday, 1 October 2015

My Story: Childhood (Part 1)

So this blog has been up for a month now and I have been asking you all to share your stories and I guess you guys may like to know what led me here. So here is my story.