Saturday, 13 February 2021

We are Time to Change


Today marked the official end to my journey with Time to Change as a Young Champion. It also, unfortunately, was a goodbye to the campaign itself as it will close down at the end of next month. Endings always make me look back with tears in my eyes and a smile on my lips thinking "fuck I did that." 

I joined the program in September 2018 and thought I could confidently speak about mental health. But I remember on the first training weekend being asked what our telltale signs are that we aren't okay so that the buddy that we were paired up with could keep an eye out. I struggled so much with this simple task, I felt so much shame letting someone know I might not be okay. I realised on that weekend that I could confidently speak about mental health behind a screen but in person, i was still quiet and ashamed. 

Time to Change has given me a voice and the ability to share my story in person. To be able to look someone in the eyes and tell them my story and to be proud of myself. I've shared my story in schools, in youth clubs, in football clubs, through Twitter takeovers, and i can now have very honest conversations about mental health with my friends, family and work colleagues. 

I have grown in confidence and my passion for mental health education has been burning so bright these past few months since I have returned back to campaigning. I've learnt that big or small, every action towards changing attitudes towards mental ill health is a drop in a much wider ocean. Every one of us using our voices are creating a change. 

This campaign is so vitally important and the news of the government stopping funding hit us all in different ways. I felt angered that mental health once again seems to left on the back seat. But now it is up to us to keep the conversation going. 

To the staff that have supported me over the past 2 and a bit years, thank you. Thank you for giving me amazing experiences like meeting Jonny Benjamin, for supporting me whilst I took a year and a half break from campaigning and for inspiring me and supporting me on my journey back into campaigning. 

To the other young champions, thank you for your support, thank you for the laughs and thank you for understanding. I will never forget on that first training weekend when I asked Jonny Benjamin a question and then one of the other young champions turned to me and whispered "did you have to rehearse that in your heard a million times?" Someone understood. Being in a room full of people who just got it without having to explain it is a feeling I will never forget. Thank you. 

What comes next now this campaign ceases to exist? We keep going, we keep speaking and we keep sharing. 

"Time to Change is within you all- you are Time to Change- you'll never stop- it won't ever be the end" - @JoLoughran, Director of Time to Change 

We are Time to Change

Monday, 18 January 2021

Things to cheer you up on this Blue Monday

Today is the famous blue Monday and although I think labeling this day is a load of shit, I do agree that we could all do with a bit of cheering up this January. Especially given that the Christmas festivities are over and now we are just sat at home, in another national lockdown missing our pre-covid lives. So here are a list of things to cheer you up, in the hopes to at the very least make you crack a smile.

Sunday, 3 January 2021

Zero waste changes I implemented that you can too!

In 2020 I decided I wanted to make more environmentally conscious decisions. Some of these changes were simple and easy, others took months of thinking about them before finally taking the plunge. I thought I would share these changes with you and share that being environmentally conscious isn't about being perfect, but every change you are able to make creates a knock on effect.

Friday, 1 January 2021

Coming Back

Hello! It has been a hot minute since I've sat down and written a blog post. But along with the new year (Happy New Year by the way), my passion for mental health campaigning seems to have been reignited. I think I burnt myself out before and needed a year and a half break before I finally now feel ready to come back! (With boundaries this time!) We do love a queen who grows! 

Monday, 30 March 2020


Photo by Tim Goedhart on Unsplash

We are currently going through an immensely anxiety provoking time. We are surrounded by uncertainty, stuck in our houses, bombarded by the news and left unsure with what to do with ourselves. I am the first to say that some nights I am left awake, nauseous with the weight of the world. Other nights my brain physically hurts as it spirals with thoughts.

Wednesday, 26 February 2020



I've wanted to write for a while, but whenever I do I feel I have nothing important or worthwhile to say. Symptom one of depression: loss of enjoyment for the things you once loved.

Friday, 6 September 2019

Being suicidal

Did you the word suicide grab your attention? 'Suicide' is a word that intrigues us and yet makes us all a little uncomfortable. It's a topic that we want to skim over quickly or ignore completely. But with suicide rates rising at an alarming speed, we need to have conversations about it. We need to talk about suicide until it is no longer an uncomfortable topic, until you can say that you feel suicidal just like you can say that you found a lump in your breast. 

Sunday, 25 August 2019

Pulling the plug on social media

Social media is always put into question, especially when it comes to our mental health. Many say that it is detrimental to our mental wellbeing, but others say it's been a lifeline for them. I've been on both ends of the spectrum, and in July I decided that I have had enough of feeling shitty on social media. So, I pulled the plug, here is what happened.

Monday, 10 June 2019

7 small ways you can help save the planet today

You can't escape the fact that we are killing our planet. If you weren't aware of that, then where have you been? More and more I am trying to change the way that I am living so that I can help the planet. Sometimes I get asked why I bother because the things that I do won't make much of a difference. But imagine if every single person made some small changes, the ripple effect would lead to a greater change to our planet's health. So I have come up with a list of small changes you can make today to help save our planet.

Wednesday, 22 May 2019

Where have I been? Finishing uni, losing my brother, what's next?

It has been a hot minute since I last sat down to blog. In fact, if you follow me on social media you may have noticed that I have been quieter than usual on there too. So I thought I would take the time to give an update of sorts, so grab a cuppa, it could be a long one.

Sunday, 3 March 2019

A mental health conversation with my dad

Often the conversations I have surrounding mental health are with other people who "get it", so I thought I would shake it up and so was born this series. A series where I will have a range of conversations about mental health with various people in my life. Previously I had a conversation with my mum which can be found here. In this post I have a conversation with my dad.

Saturday, 2 February 2019


I don't usually do these types of posts but January has been a month. The first month of the year is over and my goodness has it been a rollercoaster. 

Saturday, 12 January 2019

A Mental Health Conversation with my Mum

Often the conversations I have surrounding mental health are with other people who "get it", so I thought let's shake it up and so was born this new series. In this series, I will have a range of conversations about mental health with various people in my life and what better way to kickstart this series than with my mum. Enjoy!

Tuesday, 11 December 2018

A look back on 2018

2018. What a year. I say what a year as though its been amazing but in actual fact its been really tough. On January first I started my bullet journal and set myself a list of things that I wanted to achieve. So in this post, I want to share with you the highs and lows of 2018, as well as a thought on 2019.  This may be a long one so grab a cuppa. 

(Trigger warning, talk of weight, self-harm, suicidal thoughts, and emetophobia)

Sunday, 25 November 2018

I don't have much to say.

It's been a while since I've found the will to write but as the title says I don't have much to say, and that pretty much explains my absence. So this blog post may not have a point or a direction but instead, it'll be a bit of an explanation of the last month or so, consider it an update of sorts. 

Sunday, 21 October 2018

Drawing the short straw; born a woman

From the very moment I entered this world I had drawn the short straw. Despite growing up in a rapidly changing society where ideologies have flipped, the short straw is still in my hand and the hands of every other women on this planet because no matter how much men scream that we are now equal and “enough is enough”, we have vaginas and that alone will always mean that we will be a mile behind men.

Wednesday, 10 October 2018

Student mental health - falling through the net

Student mental health is hot in the press. In 2015, 15,000 students disclosed a mental health condition, but despite the fact that students are encouraged to talk about their mental health, accessing help whilst a student is made incredibly difficult. With waiting lists incredibly long and only living on campus for 7 months of the year, accessing help is almost impossible, that's if you are even accepted. Here is my story.

Sunday, 23 September 2018

You are what you eat, a rant about social media

It has been a while now since I lost my spark. My motivation for everything dwindled until even my passion for blogging, my proudest achievement, slipped out of existence and I was left staring at a blank screen with nothing to say. Nothing to say, and it felt, no one to listen.

Tuesday, 11 September 2018

The start of a new adventure - Time to change

Its been a while since you've read a blog post from me but after the weekend I've had, I've found myself with a spark of motivation. If you have been following my blog or my social media for a while you will be well aware that 2018 hasn't been the smoothest of rides for my family and on top of it all I have been stuck in the worst mental health patch I think I've ever had. It's for sure been one of the hardest years of my life and the fact that there are still 4 months left of 2018 and then more years kind of makes me sad because will it actually get better? Will I ever feel better? But this weekend I had that little spark of hope as I attended the Time to Change young champion training weekend in London and I wanted to tell you all about it.

Saturday, 25 August 2018

Being 21

Being 21, which I have been for the past 8 months is a very strange age. Since birth everyone has been aiming for around about the same milestones; walking, talking, getting into their preferred secondary school, GCSE's, A levels, Uni and then suddenly you arrive at 21 and there aren't any more guidelines to live by. My whole life up to this point has been mapped out by little goals and now there aren't any. We are in this weird dimension between being a child and being a proper adult, this weird dimension between the family home and our own lives.