Tuesday, 22 September 2015

A Stronger Person

My story begins at age 4, with my parents divorce. After years of split custody my mum remarried, had another child and I moved to live with her. Things turned sour as my mother struggled with bringing up myself and my little brother. She developed issues with alcohol and her mental health declined. I turned to comfort eating to deal with this and by the age of 13 I had ballooned to 17 stone.

At this point  my dad intervened and asked if I wanted to move back with him. I agreed and was able to escape the toxic environment. Throughout my teenage years dad helped restore my confidence and self esteem and I became interested in sports and healthy eating.

However, I always saw myself as the "fat kid" even when I wasn't, and in my early adulthood I developed neurotic behaviours in regards to my eating and exercising. I began to exercise more and eat less. I became ritualistic and obsessive about what I ate, when I ate and how much I ate. This developed into an eating disorder tat lasted for 2 and a half years. During this time, I also suffered from Depression for a year and I completely lost all pleasure and purpose to my life.

Towards the end of 2012, I had decided enough was enough and I started to pursue my dream of becoming an author. In My 2013, I published my first novel and in August 2014 my second.

This gave me a sense of achievement and purpose I had never felt before and alone with discovering meditation, gratitude and developing a positive mind set, I was able to not only recover but grow into a version of myself I thought I could never be.

However, my bigger challenge came in May 2015, when my dad told me he had been diagnosed with terminal cancer and on the 24th July he died. Dad was my wisest teacher, and my kindest healer and to lose him was a pain that I have never experienced in my life.

However, my dads death has only made me even more determined to pursue my life's dream of increasing awareness of mental health and making the world a happier place. I hope my story can inspire people that any pain can be overcome and it makes us stronger in the end.

Wishing you health and happiness.


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